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Hi all :) Good to be back :) "The seamless sky which held a rosy hue for the past so many days, has now garnered clouds beyond comprehension"....dwell on this worthless line :) CIAO

CONFLICT........THE DARK AND THE UNREASONABLE.....

"You wanted me, here I am"

"And you did not disappoint me .You and me are two of a kind... The outer world has rules and schemes. For them , you and me... we are outcasts. They might need us now, but when they are done..they will cast us out like lepers. All of society's rules,regulations and questions, they are a bad joke...they leave a bad taste in the mouth.Why worry about them??"

"Why do you want to kill me ?? Why has it come to this ?? Why do you want to leave me ??"

"Kill you ?? Leave you ??? Ha ha ha ha :) What would I do without you?? Go back to life the way it was ?? NO....you are a part of me.... YOU COMPLETE ME !!"

"You are not what I made you out to be...you are someone who toys with unplayable things and kills the soul for fun..."

"Do not try to talk like one of them...You are not.....Even if you try to be one... You are truly incorruptible aren't you ??? You believe in true emotions.... This is what happens when an indestructible force meets an immovable object."

"My heart just showed you that it is full of emotions ready to believe in what is good and true and I will not yield, I will not give up....."

"Not when it has been battered and destroyed beyond repair...You did not surely think that I would risk my heart in an emotional tryst with you ?? No, I had my ace up my sleeve. I took your heart and brought it down a level...you see sadness is like gravity...one push and you go over the edge :). I think that you and I are destined to do this forever :)"

"It cannot be like this....

It will not be like this.... I did my own heart in... I killed my own soul.... sometimes the truth is not enough.... sometimes you have to be the person you do not deserve but you rather need.... sometimes you have to repay people's trust... sometimes you need to reward their faith... I am not a hero or a lover...

I am a guardian, a silent angel... you will condemn me, you will set the dogs on me... but I will always be there... I am the person you do not deserve but you need...a knight...shining...I am your eternal dark love....."

EXILE NOTICE :)...........

For all my readers ( I know that there are few of them :) ) a one month break is in order because my exams are on in full swing and my mom has told the internet connection wallas :) to resume the connection only after a month....so an exile of a month is in order...I will miss blogging in a way and I will definitely miss google talk :) Stay well and safe everybody. Take good care of yourselves.....and be good :) I ll try to find a PC and a net connection somewhere in case "not blogging" tears my nerves :) but I cannot promise :)

I spent last night observing a wall lizard...it was ever so patient and occupied the same spot on my wall for about an hour....I fell asleep looking at it and when I opened my eyes at 3 am to resume studies, it was still there...infinite patience...I wish we had it :) How simple would some things have been.... CIAO all .... wish me luck :)

FLYING EAST

The lark is finding it very cold...It has decided to spread its wings and fly east for the winter...its warmer, maybe the ice in the heart will melt..............

A FROZEN BODY RECOUNTS.........

The mystery still continues to haunt me. Why is exasperation the outlet for suppression ?? The soul is very often padlocked, quartered and lynched. To seek the confines of loneliness is pretty normal in these circumstances.... Why do we throw away the key after chaining our wandering heart securely?


The problem lies in the snow storm which is blowing from the east...It has frozen my boots and I am not able to take a single step forward...The funny point is that the warmth my heart used to emanate earlier has been diffused...so the ice can no longer be melted...Maybe I am frozen for good now...like some prehistoric reptile....my blood has turned to water and I am waiting once again for someone to come along, melt the ice...excavate and rescue my failing frozen limbs and heart......


The heart seeks warmth like glowworms....and it shines bright when it i s happy.... But when you capture it in a bottle and stow it away....both the heart and the glowworm expire after sometime..... I seek redemption....not for my sins....but for all my good times....it is not your sins that haunt you.....it is the best times you have enjoyed in your life that come back to you like old forgotten ghosts....


Maybe I will wait again...lonely by the lakeside...my chin on my knees and my hands clasped around my legs in the dwindling sunlight and wait for the moon to disappear and the sun to bake my cold face with it's warmth...it's warmth that I need, with every passing day....I am being frozen into oblivion.....

STRANGE....

Is it the aura or is it just something I fail to grasp?? Or is it a warning ?? Or a natural death ??? I just cannot comprehend....I am losing it...the armor is being prepared again...the blizzard is blowing again....

I AM THE GAME....TIME TO PLAY ME >>>>>>

The enigma is going to be unraveled and the doors are going to open. The green light will burst forth and flood over all of you…the light will paint you, subdue you and make you look up to the ultimate mystery……..

I am the game, the code, the path to the grail….

If you want to know me better….you will have to play the GAME…..me…..ABC….the paroxysm of hardness and the debt you can never pay…..

This is my level…my world…my rules……my weapons…..

For ages…I have been mowed around, kicked about and hurt…not anymore… The GAME is here….

Maybe I take inspiration from the original GAME….but then….it is all about who has control and who can take the dominance. I have never ending levels, each harder than the next….. I am the vortex, the unbreakable metaphor…..

You will get sucked in….you will be burnt in hell…you will kicked aside and left to die like a fool :) that is if I do not like you…if I do like you….then you will offered a choice to quit…because once you decide to play the GAME….you may have a hard time…

It’s all about the Game and how you play it……

Try me….try to know me…….because it is time to play the game……

Straight from hell, all fury will be let loose……if you survive….you will be face to face with the king of kings……

Every hour, every minute and every second….I have to back up my words and I do…because….I am the best….I am the GAME……

PRESS PLAY TO HEAR MY ANTHEM.....

Once in a thousand years, there comes a person, who rises above the heads of ordinary men and stands up for what is right. Once in a thousand years, there comes a person, capable of taking decisions which other people fear to take. Once in a thousand years, there comes a person, who becomes an entity, a symbol of hope for the downtrodden. The world is breeding corpulent corruption and hatred and it needs someone to take a stand. Once in a thousand years, there comes a person who risks it all for the greater good. Once in a thousand years, there comes a person, who sacrifices without fear. My time has come….