Friday, September 5, 2008

DOES GOD EXIST -( PART 1)??? TEACHER'S DAY AND FOOD...


Does God really exist??

I know the dilemma your brain is now facing.................

I know you might say yes...................

I know you might say no..................

Whatever you may say...the fact is that...according to me GOD, stands for GIVER OF DESTINY...

Destiny is a strange companion.....We all have something in store for ourselves...It cannot be predicted or foretold...Screw the astrologers and soothsayers !!...I believe that they are complete frauds.... We write our own destiny...but who brought us to the threshold??

Where did destiny evolve from ??

What is the purpose of the Earth's creation ??

Those who say that our Solar System was formed as a result of the Big Bang....I do not disagree....But do you mean to say that there was no cause or catalyst for this massive phenomenon ???

The Solar System has a destiny...somebody has moulded it....

Do you mean to say that the whole Universe was formed out of nothing ??

Do you mean to say that there were several blasts and changes and the entire Universe appeared on a platter ???

What caused our Universe to appear??? Do not give me that cold science bullshit....It is not logical at all.......

It means that there exists a huge energy source which acted as a catalyst for our Universe's development......

We all address that energy source as GOD......we expect the source to help us out in times of strife, deliver us from evil.....

But we forget that God is an energy source....not a 24*7 helpline service.....

This concludes my first part of the three part series which I am planning to devote to this topic..........wait for more :)

Today was Teacher's Day......so Happy Teacher's Day to all my teachers....Thanks a ton for bearing an ass like me and thank you for ignoring my various proxies and bunkings :)

Annnnnnnnnddddddd I am indulging in prawns.....heavenly.....am trying out a new recipe.....will give you some when I have mastered it ...... :)

CIAO

Thursday, September 4, 2008

THE NIGHT SKY OUTSIDE MY WINDOW


Romance under a glittering night sky is a wonderful tonic :)

I am lucky enough to be blessed with a huge window and I observed the most amazing night sky today......

So I had to write about it.....

It was amazing....I wish I had a digital camera or a cellular phone with a camera....shucks... :(

It had not been raining here in Mumbai for the past week and today we were visited by a refreshing bout of rain which cleared the skies and left everything looking shiny and fresh....


You do not necessarily need to be with someone to enjoy the stars............

I listened to Bon Jovi and I enjoyed the specactular view with a hint of sadness.....(I do wish I had someone by my side).

The most amazing thing was that the stars formed a huge glittering bottle....

It must a sign telling me not to ever indulge in spirits (or to indulge ??? I do not know baby :) )

OR

It must be telling me that I have not taken out my bottle from my college satchel and kept it near the basin and that Mom would kill me :)


The moon was glowing...as white as a sheet of paper (See....this is what happens when you do too many assignments...you start seeing sheets everywhere )...I had a strong urge to write something on it.....it was simply an ethereal experience :)

Teacher's day tomorrow.... Have to give a speech :( and submit assignments......

College Life is nice though.....

You get to impress people with your speeches :)
and I mean IMPRESS ......... :)
CIAO

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

THE "F" WORD............FASHION....(ACCORDING TO ME IS.... :) )


Hiya everybody..... since my mood is considerably better and my eyebrows have regained their normal non-frowning positions...I will embark upon a topic close to my heart and my skin literally :)...........fashion.....

Without beating about the peeing bush :)...I will straight away put forward my list of things that irritate the hell out of me when I see them...I mean I literally blow my fuse :

  • Shaded jeans : Unless you are a film star..why ??...for pity's sake....they look horrible and cheap
  • Jeans with rivets and too many brass embellishments : Guys ...in the name of Zeus....What do you exactly want to convey ?? You look like circus clowns......Horrible....Girls ...you look pretty...Make your opposite sex counterparts understand....It is an eyesore...
  • Jeans with huge and floppy back pockets (along with a huge flap) : Again ....my male friends....it makes your backside swell up....and when you put your wallets inside those huge pockets and button them up...Heavens...one half of your backside looks as if it has been stung by millions of bees.
  • Jeans worn way, way, way below the waistline : I can understand wearing them low..even I like low waist jeans....but to wear them so low that you cannot climb up a staircase and more than 3 quarters of your underwear is visible...it's sickening to look at......(the permissible level is such that only the waistband of your underwear is visible)
  • Red and orange cargoes : Puhleaze !! Are you Govinda's protege' ?? Go drown yourself in a barrel of ditch water.
  • Formal trousers and SPORTS SHOES !! : Have you lost your marbles ?? Are you from the Planet of the Apes ?? I pity you....Go and beg for forgiveness....from the God of Fashion.....
  • Jeans in purple and off-green : Get out !!! and loan some money from the bank.... buy yourself a nice plain, blue/black jeans.

And............I can go on and on and on....but I will stop here for now.....

Now for the list of things I really,really dig....


  • Plain navy blue/light blue/dark black, stone washed/regular jeans : The plainer ....the classier....I love them simple and NORMAL :)
  • A sparkling white shirt with blue jeans : My all time favorite....A must for all boys and girls to try out....Boys look hot and girls look hotter :)
  • A jacket/blazer and jeans : Again a must try-on .....boys look sharp and girls look crisp...even if you are out partying...boys...team up a corduroy jacket with jeans and a pair of funky sneakers...it looks cool.
  • A Waist coat and Jeans : NO ...you will not look like a waiter....trust me...it looks refreshing and damn trendy....

That concludes the list of the things I really like........There are several more...but my patience is limited and so is my mood to type :)

Now...if you want to judge a really fashionable person...look downwards.....A set of smart footwear is essential...Dirty footwear annoys the hell out of me ( unless you are cavorting about in the rains.....)

This post reflects my personal opinions...I am not Versace or Armani...but I do have a decent fashion sense ( Thanks a ton Mom)....If you do not agree with me....I respect your opinions....After all..."Fashion is not about what you think looks good on you, it is about what people think....and what they feel... looks good on you"

This statement should not deter you from wearing what you feel is comfortable....but then people might speak...(Screw them....people speak only when they are jealous or when you are horribly dressed up)

Phew....that's a lot of gyaan...............I'll stop here....

PS : Girls ...your modern wear is good....but please consider wearing salwar kameezes and saris from time to time...I know saris create lots of hassles but you look darn beautiful in them
:)

CIAO

Monday, September 1, 2008

THE HEART...THE PAIN


People are meant to be emotional faucets.....Ah the human heart...You wonder around in search of contentment and you thirst for the elixir of love...you keep on searching until your soul is sucked dry of it's gushing faith and roaring hope....

Why the attachment...my dear heart ?? Why not walk bereft of the pain and the hurt?? You are a strange creature my dear heart...You like pain...and you like to be morose and gloomy....

Can I understand you my heart?? No...I do not think so...you bleed and you stab me with each beat......

I understand the pain of others...but I am devoid of the divine power to heal..I can only hug and console...The rest is up to your heart....Will it beat for you???

Sunday, August 31, 2008

THE PRINCE....MY DADA AND HIS DADAGIRI......


He was Indian Cricket's biggest revelation...... No...I am not talking about Sachin Tendulkar or MS Dhoni..... He is the Prince of Kolkata.....the King of Behala.....He is my Dada, my idol and inspiration...Sourav Ganguly...

MS Dhoni became only the second Indian Cricketer to be awarded the Rajiv Gandhi Khel Ratna...I feel happy for the guy...but somewhere down the line I am stung by the injustice of it all. How could India's most successful test captain ever, the man who led India to the 2003 World Cup finals and the man who started the trend of bearding the Australians in their own den ....not be given the Khel Ratna??

The only answer which comes to my mind is dirty politics or biased politics.




Dada..after winning the Natwest series final at Lords


I am still branded with the legendary and immortal image of Dada ...twirling his shirt, bare chested after India had won the Natwest Series against England at the Mecca of Cricket - Lords
...He was shouting and screaming and hurling one "fuck off" after another and rightly so...because the English team was fucked off and Andrew Flintoff had disappeared from the scene....



Dada in full flight during his knock of 183

His innings at Taunton where he decimated a full strength Sri Lankan attack with his mammoth 183 still holds a special place in my heart....he helped India reach a huge score of 373 and squashed the mighty Lankans...




Dada acknowledges the crowd at Brisbane



His innings of 143 against Australia in the first test at Brisbane...spurred India on to achieve a miraculous retention of the Border Gavaskar trophy and blew away the myth that the Australians were invincible on home soil.......

Dada during the epic test match


Dada's insistence of including a rookie spinner Harbhajan Singh in the epic Test Match against Australia at Kolkata ,helped India create history..... Agreed that it was the Laxman,Dravid and Harbhajan show...but Dada's captaincy and a brave decision to declare ,completed the superb victory....


His first two hundreds....on debut at Lords and Trent Bridge against England took the world by storm and the haughty prince who refused to carry drinks out onto the pitch ( Because he was the 12th man) became the God of the offside...taking over the reins from David Gower...

He has been Indian Cricket's bad boy as well and has been involved in numerous altercations with the on field umpires and match referees....but then who doesn't love a bad boy :)


Dada after scoring his double hundred


I was infinitely happy when my Dada scored the first double century of his career against Pakistan and the relief on his face was evident.....I am very touchy about my Dada and I cannot take criticism aimed at him....Being a Bengali myself may have something to do with it...but he is my inspiration...


Dada with Greg Chappell

I still remember the period when Dada was ousted from the team following a face off with Greg Chappell which went on to become one of the most scandalous chapters in the history of Indian Cricket.....He showed tremendous resilience, courage and determination and fought his way back into the team...only to find himself being ill treated by his team mates..The glum and morose look on his face killed my heart..... but he roared and silenced his critics once again....He is a lion..my Dada...he never gives up....


And...........he is the only cricketer to have danced with Hrithik Roshan (Dancing God) in a Hero Honda Ad.....He is a dasher....my Dada he really is..............



Dada with SRK at the Knight Rider's promotional event


How can a man who has given so much to Indian Cricket not be awarded with India's highest sporting honour??......Give it a thought....And Dada...please guide the Knight Riders to a sensational IPL Cup victory....it will be another golden feather in your diamond cap.....Three cheers.....

The details below are furnished thanks to Gaurav Tomar....



AWARDS TO SOURAV GANGULY
  • Sportstar Person of the Year - 1998 Awarded by the Sportstar Magazine
  • Arjuna Award -1998 For outstanding performance in cricket
  • CEAT Cricketer of the Year 99-00 , Cash prize of 5 lakh rupees and a trophy
  • CEAT Indian Captain of the Year 01-02 For outstanding achievement as leader
  • Award for Cricketing Excellence 2003 Presented to men who made "the difference"
  • Padma Shri 2004 4th highest civilian award in India
  • Rammohan Roy Award 2004 For outstanding performance as captain

SOURAV IN WISDEN
  • Sourav has 4 of his innings in top 100 ODI innings declared by Wisden Cricket and 3 in top 25.
     21)Ganguly S C 141* Ind vs SA, 2000, Nairobi.
        24)Ganguly S C 141 Ind vs Pak, 2000, Adelaide Oval.
        25)Ganguly S C 183 Ind vs SL, 1999, County Ground.
        71)Ganguly S C 153* Ind vs NZ, 1999, Captain Roop 
Singh Stadium.
  • Sourav has 3 of his innings in Top 5 ODI innings played by Indian batsman as declared by Wisden Cricket.
2) Ganguly S.C 141* 196.71 India Vs South Africa
2000, Nairobi Gymkhana Club Ground


4) Ganguly S.C 141 194.35 India Vs Pakistan,
2000, Adelaide Oval
5) Ganguly S.C 183 194.07 India Vs Sri Lanka,
1999, County Ground, Taunton.
SOURAV IN ODIs
· Second fastest player to reach 10,000 ODI runs.· Fastest to reach
multiples of 7,000,
8,000, 9,000 ODI Runs.
· Second Fastest after
Viv Richards to reach
6,000 ODI Runs in 147
Innings and Sachin
Tendulkar to 10,000 in
263 Innings.

Sourav Ganguly... reaching the 10,000-run mark.
· In the Sahara Cup 1997, Saurav Ganguly set a World Record for 4 consecutive Man of the Match Awards and later he was declared as the Man of The series also.
· Sourav is the highest run scorer
in the world in the
calendar year of
1997 - with 1338 runs1999 - with 1767 runs2000 - with 1579 runsin 1998, he was the 2nd highest
total run scorer in the
world after Sachin Tendulakr.
Sachin scored 1894 runs while sourav scored 1328
runs.
Which means he ruled the world cricket in batting
for 4 years.He scored 1114 runs in year 2002 also.
· Holds the record, shared withMahendra Singh Dhoni,
for the second highest score by an Indian cricketer
in an ODI — 183, against Sri Lanka in 1999.
· Held the record, shared with Sachin Tendulkar, for
the highest first wicket partnership for India in a
ODI match, 258, against Kenya in 2001. This record
was bettered by Sri Lankan opening pair of Jayasuriya
and Tharanga in 2006 at Headingly.
· Was involved in the first 300 run ODI partnership
with Rahul Dravid.
· Sourav with Sachin tops the list of Highest overall
partnership runs by openers with 5799 runs(17
hundred runs partnership which too is a record).
· Sourav with Sachin tops the list of Highest overall
partnership runs by a pair playing at any position
with total 7417 runs(22 hundred runs partnership
which too is a record) till date and while his
partnershipship with Rahul Dravid is on the 5th spot
in this list with a total of
4245 runs.· Sixth on the all time list with 30 man of the match
awards.
· First Indian to score an ODI century against
Australia in Australia.(who says he is afraid
of fast tracks ?? :P)
· Sourav is among those 9 cricketers of the world who
scored a century
and took
4 wickets in the same match.
He first scored 130* and l
ater took 4/21 against SL
in 1999 at Nagpur.
· Sourav is among those 12
cricketers of the world
who scored a half century
and took 5 wickets in the
same match. He scored 71*
and took 5/34 against Zim
in 2000 at Kanpur.
· Sourav Ganguly in ICC World Cup 2002/03
scored a total of 465 runs and this performance is on
5th spot in the list of Most runs in an series by a
captain with unfornately Greg Chappell topping the
list :D
· In Feb 2005: Climbed to the number 3 spot in the list
of most sixes hit by a batsman in ODI with 168 sixes
in 247 matches.



SOURAV IN WORLD CUP



· Sourav jointly(with Mark Waugh, Sachin Tendulkar and
Ricky Ponting) holds the record of scoring maximum
number of centuries (4) in world cup.
· Sourav holds the record of scoring maximum number of
centuries in a single WC (3 centuries in WC-03) jointly
with Mark Waugh and Mathew Hayden.
· Sourav holds the record of scoring most runs through
boundaries in an innings in any World Cup match.
He scored 110 runs by boundaries in his mammoth 183
score against SL in taunton in WC-99.
· Sourav’s 183 is the second highest score in an inning
by any cricketer with Kirsten topping the list with 188*.
· Sourav with Dravid holds the record of heighest
partnership of 318 runs in WC while the 2nd spont in
the list too goes to Sourav with Sachin who scored 244
runs together against Namibia in WC-03.

SOURAV IN TESTS
· One of 3 batsman who made tons in their 1st two Test innings.· Sourav was only the 3rd batsman
in the world to score a century
on debut at Lords.
· His 131 still remains the
highest by any batsman on his
debut at Lord’s.
· In May 2004: Joined the top
20 list of players whohit the
most sixes in Test cricket,
with 41 sixes.



SOURAV AS CAPTAIN


· Captained India in a record 49 Test matches.· Led India to a record 21 Test
wins.
· India's most successful Test
captain.
· India's most successful ODI
captain.
· In the 2nd Test vs. Australia
at Kolkata in the
Border-Gavaskar Trophy,
Sourav became only
the 3rd captain in Cricket history to lead a team
to victory after following on. India went on to
win the series 2-1.
· In Mar - Apr 2004: Became the first Indian captain
to win an ODI and Test series in Pakistan
.· In April 2005: Became only the 3rd cricketer and 2nd
Indian after Mohammed Azharuddin to make 5000 ODI runs
as skipper in the Pepsi Cup vs. Pakistan.

Sick and Tired


A bright Sunday morning has dispelled the dark clouds which had saturated my mind over the past week.... and I am finally having my morning cup of coffee..... But I am still raw and in no mood to blog in my normal jacked up style.......So I will be bland and just state my case....

Ok....so I attended the Rock On event down at Andheri....It was pretty good but I was in a real foul mood after being kicked about in the local trains....I was nursing a sore arm and a swollen index finger and to top it all I was bleeding from the nose in the train.....I had a torrid time at the Chembur station trying to clean up my gushing nose....

The event was being hosted by Mandira and Luke Kenny was calling the shots...I said my lines and disappeared after having a couple of sandwiches because I was in no mood to "jive".....

My brother's exams start from Monday and I am the commander in chief.....Brother...be prepared for some hard work outs....

College is stinking right now since my results were abysmal and that is the least i can say..........

And if you get the time.....listen to I am Sick by Saliva

and give "A Thousand Splendid Suns" by Khalid Hoseini a read......

Back to hard studies on Monday..I am truly and sincerely fucked up.......and my T Shirt just sums it up....Millennium Fuck... :) have a good week... Ciao....

Saturday, August 30, 2008

DO YOU DARE READ IT ??

This blog is for the sole purpose of venting my pent up frustrations........no apologies in order....




This is my blog..so I get to abuse..freely :) and I do not care who reads it..............

It's the fucked up tension..............which is playing with my goddamn fucked up life................

I am taking shitty crap and bullshit and now I am full to the brim............

All the people who think they can control and steer me....screw you....go and find something else to fuck....do not mess up my life....

I know some people will be shocked at my usage of words but then...shove your fucked up opinions up your ass and do not pass miserable judgments....

This is VIRTUAL HEMLOCK...it's poison...and I am spewing some right now.......

For all those who back stab me......screw you bastards and may God have mercy upon your souls..............

Am sick of all this hogwash...may not blog for a day or two...but then who cares.........

The next time...I will be decent....

and if I am not............fuck off :)

Friday, August 29, 2008

SHE WALKED IN THROUGH THE DOORWAY


This poem by me is dedicated to someone........very special...If you are reading it.....I mean every word of it...






I lay awake ….lying listlessly on my bed; my hands touched the cold marble floor….

The candle burned lower and lower and the room sank slowly into darkness……

My heart was slowing down…….and my limbs were shivering to the core…

My eyes were fixed on the door waiting for it to open and usher in my princess…




Would she ever come??…I was at death’s door…my life was evaporating fast,

Would I live to see another morning?? My brain refused to let me cling on to hope…

“Give up your hope” it said…how could I?? I knew she would come and help me last…

The moon cast it’s rays upon my shriveled body trying to console me and help me cope…




When my heart was at it’s last beat and my eyes had begun to close for good,

I heard a tiny little creak and instantly all my senses unaccountably froze….

The dying candlelight cast it’s halo on a lovely face with beautiful curls....there she stood,

Her graceful poise and feminine aura enveloped me like an adrenalin dose…..




She walked into the room softly…the candlelight grew brighter with her every step….

Her ethereal smile shocked my heart into a steady beat and my arms unaccountably rose..

I trembled and shivered before I took her lovely hand in mine and slowly wept,

Her hands and touch reassured me;I felt her love and my emotions burst through the hose.




She had dragged me out from the abyss of death and played me like a lovely harp,

Her hug felt warm and so good to be in…it was like heaven on earth...it was divine…

She is my protector….my angel……without her presence…I am a thrashing carp…..

Everyday I wait for her to walk in through the doorway and I wait for the candle to shine.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

MY PENANCE


Forgive me my heart, forgive me my soul,

The bread and butter you yearned for so dearly,

Has vanished into a dark black hole,

The pain haunts me and I cannot see clearly.



My name means “fearless” but I am trembling with fear,

Dark thoughts invade my mind and I am torn with despair,

My life feels as if it is a can of rotten and stale beer,

My true love has taken a hammering beyond repair.



I sleep and I am wide awake with shame,

I eat and my morsel tastes stale,

I dream but my dreams appear lame,

I laugh and I cry as if I have run into a gale.



I will try to bring back all that you have lost,

I will try to make you proud of the body you possess,

I will try to make your pain a long forgotten ghost,

This is my penance, Oh time!! Bury me in your recess

MY BIGGEST MISTAKE


I am at this very moment standing at a very crucial juncture…The steps I take from now on will probably shape my career…………

I still wonder…if engineering is the right stream for me…I still wonder and then I shrug off my contemplation mode…All the” What ifs??”are of no use now….

I remember that night very clearly….Dad was reclining on the couch….The UPTU results had just come in and he was frowning and surveying me from head to toe….”Tell me something …”he asked” Do you frankly want to pursue engineering? Mass communication will be a good option for you…don’t be afraid…don’t hesitate…tell me very truthfully…”. I still remember arguing my case vehemently….stating very passionately that I wanted to become an engineer.

The most severe mistakes are committed in the heat of passion and in hindsight I probably made my biggest mistake there…. In foresight I would still say that I made the right decision….because I feel that I can secure a reasonably good job in a good company for a couple of years….but I sometimes feel as if I murdered my ambitions on that very night in cold blood…………

How I long for those memorable lines of Shakespeare and those immortal odes of Keats!!! How I miss writing essays and filling in prepositions!!! How I miss getting regular chances to express myself on a public forum!!! Now I am nothing more than a cold blooded reptile buried in critical calculations, precise and cold figures and dull figures. Sometimes my passion bursts forth….that is the reason why I blog, why I look for opportunities to express myself…..It’s not because I have free time in abundance….it is my way of penance….I nurse my heart hoping that it will forgive me for taking away the things that it desired the most…..Most people will say that I am an egoistic fool and I have nothing better to say….But the truth is that this feeling is immune to rebukes and opinions….

I feel my creativity super cedes my analytical abilities…..but the bare truth is that my creativity lost out simply because a boy’s ego and his desire to become a money earning machine killed his freedom to dream…………………..and this is a true confession